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It’s been a while – Christmas and all that!
To be honest, I was struggling pre-Christmas, to just function. Brain and body were in a massive argument. Brain was not impressed with body not being able to do what it wanted it to do, so stormed off in a huff! I just wafted around the house, day in day out, in a complete fog. It was only when I got to 9 days before Christmas that I realised that if I didn’t get off my butt and start doing some shopping of some sort, the Christmas tree was going to be very bare of presents. So I spent three days sat at the computer ordering everything I could think of. Then I spent one day out in town doing the rest of the stuff that was needed. Christmas Eve dawned and I went for my hydro session, did a few last minute grocery purchases, went home and spent the afternoon and evening wrapping presents. I went to bed by 11.30 p.m. (a rather spectacular feat, considering in years gone by I have been up until 3 a.m. wrapping and I wasn’t on crutches) and I woke to a perfect Christmas Day!!! Yay, there is a God!
We had a fabulous day, relaxed, fun, and everything was just right! 🙂 Except for our darling Ella, our dog, who had a bit of intermittent limping. I thought that maybe she had tweaked her shoulder, so the day after Boxing Day we took her into the vets. He recommended she had an xray.
I was down to one crutch by this point, so started going out on the dog walks – slowly and carefully, but it was lovely to be back out again. We weren’t going far, because of Ella, but it was still just so nice.
We celebrated the New Year by going to some friends on the Eve, for drinks and nibbles early evening, and then saw the New Year in at home. I decided to ditch the crutch that evening, so started 2010 ‘sans crutch’!! I was just so determined that there would be no crutches this year – I have used them way too much in 2009 for my liking! So that put me at 9 weeks and two days.
We then got the devastating results of Ella’s xray – bone cancer. And prognosis of 4 – 6 weeks. We have all been gutted. To look at her, she looks like there is nothing wrong, and to think that she could possibly, now, only have a week to three weeks left with us is too hard to think about. I really don’t know what we will do without her.
The day after getting her results it SNOWED! LIKE IT HAS NEVER SNOWED IN THE UK IN MY LIFETIME!!! We had a foot and a half of fabulous white stuff – AND ELLA HAD A BLAST! Got some great shots of her, which made my day.
So, now, back to the hip stuff. Well, I am now officially 3 months post-op RPAO and 8 months 8 days post-op LPAO. My left is good – I occasionally get twanges from deep in the butt where something is working extra hard because of the right hip being so defunct! But generally it is good. It still doesn’t like sitting on hard chairs, but neither would I if I had been sawn in half! As for the right, well, my adductors are still not working properly. They are doing a little, rather than nothing at all, so there is progress. But I still have this god awful cricket ball sensation near to the pubic area. If I sit up, it hurts like buggery, everything round that area tightens, and it is constantly sore. I have had a dig around and, to me, there is a lump of bone which doesn’t appear on the left side. So I will be talking this over with the physio on Friday to see what she thinks. As for the adductors, it is affecting my walking in the fact that my leg swings slightly to the side as I put my foot down, instead of landing dead ahead of me, but apart from that the walking is going well. So well, that hubby and I have started our training for the London Marathon. Last Sunday we walked about 2.5 miles, then Tuesday we did 3 miles, and so it shall continue. I am hoping that in about 4 weeks I will be walking so much better that we will be able to put a bit of pace into it. We would like to aim for 15 minute miles. At the moment we are doing about 17 minute miles, so there is room for improvement!
I am glad to say that I have come out of the fog that surrounded me for the best part of 2 months, and I do feel so much more like ME! Yay! I cannot explain why I found my self investigating my toenails from within, but I did, and I don’t ever want to go back there. I still find that I have trouble making myself do things, particularly things that I don’t want to do. Paying bills, tidying stuff up, sponsor letters etc. – I just look at it and think “Oh well, I will do it tomorrow” and I will go and do things that I want to do instead! But we are getting there, and that is the main thing.
I am currently decorating our son’s bedroom (long overdue!) which is throwing up it’s challenges, but it is keeping me busy. Our walks with Ella are, at the moment, totally normal and she is loving it. I watch her constantly for signs of limping (I wonder if she watches me!) but so far she is good. She bounds around, greets her friends with vigour and is a joy to be with. I pray that this continues. BELIEVE.
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